You wont find your sweet nothing poetry you wont find anything in me because you cant look past the blood I bleed and there's always something I can say of something I would be ashamed to have written upon my grave so I’ll find a better use for all my broken little truths to better understand that I’m not you I don’t know my own mind am I a child or am I about to die I’m so scared but I cant cry I would give everything to feel like I am worth loving I’ve been fooled times before so I won’t open the door you can’t hurt me anymore there are paths I’ve walked before from soft sand to rocky shores to the planet’s blackened core wandering forests all alone all the trees are made of stone frozen in this twilight zone I am left to wonder why I am wrapped in withered vines strung around my throat so tight god left me here to die from my heart, to my head all my hurt, in my bed burning bridge, losing friends losing grip, of senses was life worth it in the end

Yeah I have felt this way before and I know thinking's a chore life can feel like nothing more than a midnight dollar whore I set me up for failure I bet I get cancer and screw away what precious little time or what’s left of my skin a child in the middle just toss me in the recycle bin this has gone on too long and I’m too alone to be too interested in myself at all self indulge my soul til it’s black as my dilated pupils so wretched a soul let it bleed from my pulsating heart I don’t want to try there is nothing left but truth I don’t want to die but I fear we are finished here yeah I’ve felt this way before it’s time for me to go back the hole I call home away from prying minds away from divine signs I’ve been waiting for something for so long I don’t think that it exists I’ve been going about it all so wrong I wonder if I still exist broken in the womb and born without a sense for life this was all over before it began it’s all over I’m so older it’s so much colder under the covers it’s the best it can be dream a nice dream for me

Please shoot it out to stop the bleeding please stick it out because I’m not leaving I’m begging for my life to begin forgetting what I’ve been given it’s been said that no one ever stays and proven right every damn day let’ change the status quo let’s go go go go go All in or all out we’re gonna make go here all in and all down I’m gonna win it big all over, all under we’re gonna make it work this time I won’t give up on life the blind prophet leads through lies the kind shepherd teaches true minds learning every night a better way to learn how to learn how to say I am not a statistic however sadistic living this life alone feels someone just tell me it’s real please tell me I’m real you can’t take this away I won’t give it up you can’t lead me astray I won’t give it up every single day I choose to make a choice every single night I win when I awake

Save the day for the heroes save the home for the kids forgive the nights to be close never forget the ones who miss the nameless, the endless the violence so senseless we all are one whole a beating heart with a soul not just an empty black hole small arms and small crimes for those save the day big hands and big guns for us save the day free the sinners and know we are saints for all are human and every love tainted for God’s sake let us breathe in deep let us breathe you are facing the rapture for now and ever after you are judged before birth free to judge your own worth or so the landlord says listen to the heartache give in to the wind’s change swim your way to heaven and sink into salvation’s seas breathe breath in breathe deep just breathe me in believe I’m your savior prepare to be let down

Falling backwards into memories finding the enemy inside of me these demons have grown bigger how do I defeat this monster feeling like an animal shrinking so damn small what is happening help me fight this help me conquer bigger than this shadow over all I can see no memory pleading to lost love in the dark leaving blue and black now marked for death for sins I never committed I swear on innocence so deeply corroded the world has gone mad, crass and crude is everyone now god? Dying as we are born dying as if we wer just yesterday born this is not the end the story goes on past the coastline past the sea past all horizons the story goes on and on and on and on

Now as at all times I can see in the mind's eye, In their stiff, painted clothes, the pale unsatisfied ones Appear and disappear in the blue depths of the sky With all their ancient faces like rain-beaten stones, And all their helms of silver hovering side by side, And all their eyes still fixed, hoping to find once more, Being by Calvary's turbulence unsatisfied, The uncontrollable mystery on the bestial floor.

with the dawn of magic comes the time of shadows fear the light and follow bear the sight so hollow feel your soul set fire changing in another light flicker and fading more and less bright i saw you in another light and i never changed my mind i want to hear your thoughts alive i need you near to feel alive to taste the air sweet as spring sea salt summer sprinting qicker into winter candle lightning flashing if it kills me im just a dream if i fill your cup drink me in evil lords in black castles wicked witches in black masses wailing walls of blast holes crying cannons fire ashes kiss goodinght to the holy land bless the morning of babylon come down with me tear into you sin pretty reckless bleed out on the bed sheets i'll be standing on the concrete streets throwing away a knife called lust every single second every cursed thought creating chaos come the dark before you open up bite your forked tongue satan singing serenades sitting grinning in a flowery glade biting winter shuts mid cuts i will show you the way to thy lonely only vacant grave believe in the iron man the man of steel if you want to try you can become this madmans next meal shine down on the tiny cords cut one by one by one until the way is clear

Warm inside and well to be harm is done no need to weep she was young in perfect innocence jump into my arms and dance Winter night by the firelight Summer days catching butterflies call me back when I cry again cal me back time and time again time will pass she will grow love won’t last she won’t know days will fade she will go I won’t say you won’t know I will die with my kryptonite I know nothing’s gonna be alright those long gone days stay out of sight I give up on fighting the good old fight I say goodnight when I mean goodbye and I really mean goodbye this time give me everything you want I know exactly what you need baby I know a thing or three we saw it all from the cheapest seats when he stole home she stole my light you say bring me the sun I say goodnight my kryptonite why oh my god why does this light only shine at night I am out here on the corner waiting for my pride tell me oh my god tell me how can I take a final flight I am in the shed working hard on working out alright alright

Lord of this death mask Lord of this dirt path Hide your face and wander Enslaved over encumbered Bereft deprived soft slumber Soft words spoken under Hushed winds crash like thunder The grand deceiver Heed the receiver Witness the choking bodies tumble from the mountain Bathe your broken body in humble tomb fountain Straighten the skies Beaten black eyes Harken eternal cries Heads upon stakes Teeth upon rakes Gnawing biting gnashing Clawing screeching scratching Beneath the heel of the master Believe in the puppeteer’s laughter Hopelessness longing forever after Lost in loneliness spat and scattered Nothingness not a single answer Questioning beginnings of war Knowing the ending before Cometh the reaper’s scythe Feeling thy frail frame writhe Beneath the deep blue sky Place foot upon unknown path And bear the God’s wrath The Lord of this death mask

Wrecked Shipwrecked Over my dead body Head over mind In mind Oversleep that fit Ever hiding lies Once again The wrestle inside Take my love Lake my life Leave me dead with no eyes Right behind you to the grave Melting bastion to the brave Take my heart and put it in her Whatever it takes to bring life back into her holy eyes Here again here we go Followed to where you are Followed by sinners man To watch you To make you stumble trip and fall So long strange manes Dance on the dizzy brain Turned love into words Out of sight Help Help me break this chain I made Make one for yourself Fell it so tight Feel the weight of might in days Hit the brakes in dark of night Coming off as cruelty Running down the paid off Tying up loose ends Never hurt anyone in power Never placed the earthen lower Than waiting for a god spoken word Speak love unto the hateful Time slips in time Skipping by My only home Catch your breath for one short moment It calls to me I feel it call to me Screeching squealing screaming singing Drone after drone after drone Creation brand new Vices and versa Lie n bed Lay in bed Do something for me Same old or something new I’m past the pint if giving a shit Bring my eyes that fateful brown That sexual power trip Standing on a cliff top Looking out over my parking lot kingdom Streetlights shine like beacons upon mountains Oh the magic of coke and weed Maybe next time I’ll shoot up I’m beginning to dream but it’s never enough No it’s never ever enough Shake me down Break me down Take me down Just a couple keys To keep in asylum in my own way Stretch strings and follow them all the way to the picture in the center of the longest hallway The shake down The break down The god damn take down Is it ever enough To be crazy with addition Addiction kills Addiction kills Addiction kill So hard Suicide

This blade so sharp Has played its part Cut through the depths So perilous Within my heart When I lose my head I search the shed To find my mind But it seems this time I'm as good as dead Now what's so bad Bout being sad And giving in I've given up On drink and drugs Yet I still sin Spin and spit and slit my throat To cleanse my soul oh the blade is sharp I wear thin skin my mind torn apart half grimace half grin cut the cords that bind this soul in shards blinded by light so bright cutting holes into hearts oh the blade is so sharp Maybe you'll don my shady blood soaked coat I hung it outside of my hole I dug in deep The walls are steep And I got no rope Seems like I said I'm good as dead Without a hope Well one day I hope they’ll say He was a good man who just lost his way Because sometimes lies Sound so much more nice Than what we hide from the light of day So the story ends When the madman grins What else can I say Sometimes evil wins Such is the way of men Coloring the sunshine in shades of gray I don’t believe you exist in this state I am out of my mind was it an illusion or just a lovers tryst my third eye has gone blind a spiritual intrusion dead and gone or just dead I dont know anymore been gone for so long I see them in my bed I spoke to the raven nevermore